IT WAS RELEASED TODAY!

I really loved it.

Really, truly did.

I won't spoil it for anyone but really, it's so worth seeing :D

Kwon Jiyong > Kim Jongwoon
Two and a half years of non stop Yesung love has been reduced to mush by one GDRAGON♥


I don't know how this happened.

Why is evryone growing up. I just found out another one of my friends has lost it, and here I am floundering about six months single going on seven. I'm not saying I wanna go out and like do the next guy I meet, but, I still feel so young. Everyone's growing up around me and I'm just stuck in this awkard spot. Le sigh.

So apparanty Junsu gave Yoochun a $4000 friendship ring. LOL.

So yeah; I'm over that weird Joe thing. It was just like, idk, even less than a crush? I was talking to Mel and Chi about it for like the first time and they were all "I KNEW IT!" XD I'm pretty sure it was the whole, like looks thing that stopped me from letting the crush develope and shit. FUCKED UP SELF ESTEEEM AND BODY IMAGE IS UNCOOL. But yeah, I knew I was too fug for him anyways so yeah. I nearly raged at Ivy on the train because she was being all shitzy over food. I hate people who are like that. Minal is doing it too and i just wanna like kick them or something.

I refuse to let myself relapse just because of few things people have said, although recently I put on like two kilos which puts me JUST at my bmi, this makes me sad. I know it's winter and stuff but still D:

At Benji's advice me and Reef talked stuff over and he's switching up his rotation so we can have a break from each other, i hope this finally helps him with whatever is stopping him from moving on.

Sem Two subjects have started so I'm pretty chilled out with school but like, my report is going to be so fucked, I have to pull it together by the endd of the year or i'm slightly screwed.

( TAX-ZORED OFF ERIC )

( rant. )

Edit1On another note; God I wish I looked like that.

I'm bored so I'm watching old episodes of Daria. I forgot how much I loved that show.
I also forgot that I was in love with Trent Lane while growing up XD

"The key to my exercise program is this one simple truth: I hate my body... Don't you understand that the second you look in the mirror and you're happy with what you see - Baby you just lost the battle."
- DR. Cox, Scrubs

I thought friends made you feel better about yourself, not this shit. It's like what Martin said, only this is worse cause I acually am friends with this guy. WIth Martin I barely knew him so like, whatever but with this guy he's my fucking friend. I know it's not his fault and that I'm bitching about it and whining but freaking hell. GUH. And I'm glad he's honest and like and can tell shit in all honesty and it's my own fault for thinking from my side and not his.

I'm going to go with Bryan on Friday. I will have a good time. With him or his brother Dan's cute friend. It doesn't matter. I'm dropping this stupid immature shit, and I knew I shouldnt have started it in the first place.

I'm fucking ugly, and stupid and fat and GOD why am I so stupid?
I hate this game, I hate the doubt, the self hatred and the fucking judgement. ARGH SO STUPID. I don't want to go back to fasting and purging, but bloody hell as if I let my guard slip down so easily and infront of someone I've been friends with barely a few months.

Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
Sometimes, life sucks dick.

Shit, I have a history sac im not ready for and now instead of studying im going to go cry.

How can one person break down my wall so easily?